Thoughts on a Thursday
I woke up later than I normally do because I was beyond exhausted and knew my body needed rest. I also knew the consequence of what would happen if I denied my body rest, so back to sleep I went.
The morning was chaotic, my routine was off, I was stressed, anxious, and lets just call it “assertive” this morning. My empathy was low and I was just wanting to be alone.
I threw lunches together and tried to give myself grace and not judge the disaster of a mess we made “rushing” out the door.
Bella didn’t like her hair and I ripped out the ponytails with a little, ok A LOT of frustration and she began to cry. I wanted to redo it but there wasn’t “time for that.” I threw the brush and the ponytail holders in the sink and told her to figure it out in 30 seconds and get in the car.
I did my best to recover some level of peace and gratitude as I sent the kids off to school. I dropped Kason off first, he was one minute late and said, “its ok mommy”.
I dropped the others off, one still in a pajama shirt w/ food all over his face and the other with sloppy hair, a hurt heart and late.
The second Beckham got out of the car, I hadn’t even left the school parking lot yet, I just began to cry, with overwhelm and guilt and anxiety.
I think sometimes as moms we forget to let ourselves feel the pain and frustration of all we try to carry.
It is a lot, and I’m allowed to be overwhelmed and extremely grateful, in fact, I needed the tears, letting go helped me heal this morning. I needed to give myself permission that it is a big job and I’m allowed to break down. I wept and prayed and asked God to help me with a supernatural peace.
My house is in disarray, I feel all over the place and this morning was a cluster, but one thing I know for sure, God doesn’t change. He was there to comfort me the second I cried out to him.
I almost called a few girlfriends to vent and something in me stopped me from picking up the phone…my biggest distraction.
In the tears, God was there, He sees me and knows me and I’m safe with Him and that is enough.
I came home, poured myself a cup of coffee and heard him whisper, “I love you, I have given you all the GRACE you need to raise the kids I’ve given you. Candace, you CAN do this.” And as I sat there, I let that be all I needed to shift my perspective and continue on with my day. Knowing with the utmost gratitude, I lack nothing, no shame or guilt the enemy tried to taunt me with, but understanding in my heart, I am clothed in grace, dignity, strength and peace. Bring it on Thursday.
A FEW ACTIVATIONS FOR YOU MOTHER
1. Prayer is your safe place. Worship is your weapon. GO TO THE THRONE before the PHONE when you are feeling overwhelmed, anxious or stressed, Lay at the feet of Jesus, let it go. CRY IT OUT, He carries every burden and care. Give Him your fear and worry and He will give you supernatural peace. (Philippians 4:6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.)
DECLARATION: I let go of every heavy weight and all worry and come into agreement with a peace that passes all understanding. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
2. Remind yourself frequently, ESPECIALLY when you are feeling defeat; You are anointed and qualified and have all the grace you need to raise the babies you’ve been given. (Isaiah 61:1 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me, for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor. He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners freed.)
DECLARATION: I am a powerful mother and I have been chosen for such a time as this to raise my babies. It is my greatest honor to be a mother.
3. Give power to Jesus and let Him sit on the throne of your heart. Don’t let your surroundings or other people dictate your peace. REST and TRUST Jesus. You are a powerful, strong, grace filled, peaceful warrior. You impart this to your family.
DECLARATION: I am brave and I lead with PEACE and impart that to my family. (Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in PERFECT peace all who trust in you, all whose thoughts are fixed on you)
4. Communicate with your kids and involve them in your thought process. It teaches them how to connect the dots. Come up with game plans and execution together to empower your children and celebrate them. You are a woman who seeks wisdom and operates in full authority.
DECLARATION: I have authority and wisdom with my family. (James 1:5 If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and He will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking.)
5. Frustration and overwhelm are invitations to grow with our Jesus. Constantly look for divine opportunities of growth as they are presented daily. You are a woman who sees through the lense of heaven.
DECLARATION: I rise above exhaustion and frustration and overwhelm. (Isaiah 40:31 But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.).
“I waited and waited and waited some more, patiently, knowing God would come through for me. Then, at last, he bent down and listened to my cry. He stooped down to lift me out of danger from the desolate pit I was in, out of the muddy mess I had fallen into. Now he’s lifted me up into a firm, secure place and steadied me while I walk along his ascending path. A new song for a new day rises up in me every time I think about how he breaks through for me! Ecstatic praise pours out of my mouth until everyone hears how God has set me free. Many will see his miracles; they’ll stand in awe of God and fall in love with him!" Psalms 40:1-3 TPT
